I Want It All May 15, 2008© Amy Ford

I Want It All May 15, 2008© Amy Ford
Do you want it all? I do. I want happiness, health and peace on earth. I believe I can create these. Maybe you think I am an idealist? Maybe you think I am sappy or weak. It doesn’t matter how much people try to put their stress on me I manage to maintain this positive outlook.
We are each on our own trip. Mine happens to glow through rosy lenses and smell of sweet essences. Even death, which stirs so many strong emotions in us, is a fascinating phase of life to me.
A very good friend of mine who was a student and great yogini, passed away this week. I had the honor of serving her through her last months here in this lifetime and being in her brilliant light. I was constantly amazed at her ability to maintain integrity, lightness in her heart and acceptance.
I went to see her and give to her, several times a week over the last few months when she could no longer attend my classes. I worked on her feet, guided her into gentle yoga postures, chanted, played drum and gave her reiki energy. We talked about her death in celebration. We vowed to communicate when she reached the other side.
She floated over a few days ago. The morning she left her body I laid in my bed and said her name over and over out loud. I felt her presence. In an eery way I knew. She promised me she would guide me from the other side. I promised I would listen. Two days later her mother called me to tell me of her passing and we talked of this. She acknowledged what I had experienced.
Timothy Leary and Ram Das talked about death together in a discussion called “The Last Dance.” This famous discussion took place toward the end of Leary’s life. The discourse brings to light many points that make me feel so good. These are things we need to constantly be reminded of.
Many of us do our most profound work in the last few minutes before we die. Why wait? I want to begin this work now! Leary urged us to learn to face our final release with interest, class, style and friendship. He said that you can’t turn your life over to doctors or priests. Leary emphatically advised us to take charge of our death by taking charge of our lives. He constantly taught that we need to think for ourselves.
I interpret this to mean: Dare to want it all. Dive deep within yourself and find your truth. The proper way to do this is by being yourself. Discover, explore and treasure your own uniqueness.
Find your joy by turning your life into a dance. Find your all by transforming your life into a poem. You are a writer of your destiny. Why make it a drama? Be compassionate to your body. Love strangers. Give. Receive. Find your super consciousness.
Ram Das teaches us that we picked it all: Our births, our deaths and all of the in-between. Why fight your choice? He describes that we are awareness. His analogy is that we are fingers of consciousness branching off of the hand of the one consciousness. We can move the hand in any direction we please.
What I really want is for us to live in harmony. What I really want is for us to be healthy and to treat the earth with love and respect. What I really want is to share the good parts of myself with everyone I come in contact with. What I really want is to feed those who cross my path with all my good intentions and fill them up with happiness and joy. What I really want is for us to find the one state of being in a loving vibration.
Jill Bolte Taylor said: We are the life force power of the universe . . . We have the power to choose moment by moment who and how we want to be in the world.
What are we choosing? I choose for us to want it all.